Can I do this again?

There is nothing in this world like parenting a terrible two year old. Especially when you were so unprepared to do it again.

Every child is a blessing and a gift. I begged for the first three. Couldnt wait to be a mum. But when we decided afte I sent crazy with number three that we were done it was a hard decision. I know I didnt want anymore kids but I didnt know if I could emtionally deal with having my tube tide. So my wonderful husband took it upon himself to fix the situation. When our youngest turned five we were reliashing in life. Sleeping in on the weekends. No more nappies to deal with. Life had gotten simple again as it can with three kids.

Three years of knowing we would never have any more kids we were so relaxed. Until the day I started throwing up and not feeling so well. Jokingly after a few weeks we said to each other that it was like i was dealing with morning sickness again. Until it dawned on me. Potivie Test surprised us like never before. We of course couldnt be one of those statistics that win the lotto. instead we are one of those statistics whose vasectomy heals itself and viola we have child number four.

Today I am tired. All week long I have been tired. Actually it feels like I am always tired. Parenting a two year old at the age of 35 is alot harder then it was in my 20's. Hats off to all those mums who have children late in life. While I have more patience now as an older mum the stress is so much harder. Our little man gets away with murder having the older siblings and being spoiled by his two parents who dote on him. We have literally created a monster. LOL

Our little man is by far the smartest of the four. But he is also used to having everyones attention and now that he is two he will find any way to get that attention. Hitting, yelling, sceaming, biting and throwing just to name a few. He can be such a beautiful angel one minute and we are all staring at him as he says all his colours and then run from him when we see his eyes turn.

Trying to get this little man to eat is another struggle. I forgot how picky two year olds can be. Sleeping is a bit hard he prefers to do that with his mum and dad. He has had two surgeries already by the age of 2. He is still constantly sick it seems. Seem they should have taken his adnoids and tonsils out when they put the gromits in his ears but I didnt push it. But we seem to be suffering with sinus and chest infections that leave him tired and sick and suffering with such a high fever it is easier for him to sleep with us. Now it feels like he wont ever get out of our bed.

But through it all I can remind myself that this time of life never lasts that long. He is growing up faster then we ever thought. We will have plenty of time for him to sleep in his bed, to eat the right foods, to be sick and still sleep alone time to for him to grow up and learn to reason better. And soon I will be complaining because he is a teenager and wont come out of his room.

This is Parenting from a teenager down to a toddler. Enjoy life when we can even the hard moments. They never last for long!